The Time We Spent Together

From the day we met,
I knew there was something special about you,
Something that made me feel special inside,
Feeling my heart filled with joy whenever we were together,
missing you whenever you were gone,

It's because of you that I was able to grow as a person,
it's because of you that I was able to discover things about myself that I never would've realized on my own,
You make me a better person just by being you,
knowing that i could always talk to you whenever I needed help,

Although a bit saddened wishing I could do the same for you,
As it seems I've brought pain and adversity various times during our friendship.
 I can't take back what happened nor can I ever make up for it,
However, I just hope you'll believe me when I say that I'll always be there if you need me.

I promise no matter what happens in my life, I'll always be there for you,

Even though I may not always have the answers, that still won't stop me from trying my best to help you.
In my heart, you'll always be one of my closest friends,
I feel very lucky that I met an angel like you,
as you truly made me a better person, and I hope someday I can repay you.

SACRIFICE

He cried almost silently,
And slowly. A tear would fill his eye,
Drop to a cheek, quiver trembling for an endless eternity,
And fall to the ground.
And then he'd start again, perhaps punctuated by a gasping breath
His arms wrapped tightly around himself, not allowing anyone near.

I sit, helpless, aching for his pain,
But unwilling and unable to find the words to ease him
By taking the blame, yet again...
Unwilling, for fear of trapping myself within his circle of sadness.
And so stay, we two, tensely balanced,
Somewhere between despair and despair,
Perhaps this is our only solution.

Women really liberated?????

I wanna ask all those people who get judgmental about a women who smokes, drinks and goes out with friends, if India still looks down upon us for doing all of this, then why do we really blow the trumpet of liberation and empowerment. 

When we talk of women liberation, we should look at our society. Even a man is not liberated in our society. Liberation is the independence to take own decisions for career, partner and lifestyle. Women are definitely can't take these decisions freely in our society but can man do that. Other than some families in metro, I guess no. they still have to go by their parent's decision considering caste for marriage.  If you stop a girl from going out with friends, enjoying herself, and being comfortable with the society, how on earth can you expect her to be open and liberated in her thoughts.This not only applies to women, but to anyone living on the planet. The important thing to have liberal thoughts is intent, and the other is the scope/opportunity. People today (men and women included) are becoming more interested in having an opinion and belief about their surroundings, society.

In today’s world where women/ girls work as much and sometimes more than their counterpart males ,their way of dressing up, entertainment, social interaction, language and life styles have changed drastically. If any girl (daughter) wants to work till late hours, sometimes in different cities or countries parents feel proud and boast about it everywhere. Don't parents proudly tell how good their daughter is in her work, how well she is earning but when it comes to lifestyle changes, they call it hip culture and try to prevent her rushing into it, rubbishing the entire attitude;  she must believe in Indian values. Losing virginity before marriage is a complete no, no...... that is a gift she must preserve for her husband. I am sorry it doesn’t work that way. With education, demands from prospective brides are high too....they don’t want to cook and clean or stand attendance to in laws. They want their partners to be equally committed in return. Virginity like any other attribute asks for same from the males too. It’s no more like males could demand a virgin wife and have a mistress tucked away somewhere else.  Since females are in competition in every field, they don't lag behind in this field too...... if males can enjoy sexual gratification before marriage then why should females  preserve virginity?

Whether it is right or wrong I shall come to that later on but I must say we can't have double standards. Sexual urges are same in both sexes and with marriage age slowly shifting from teenage years to late twenties or even thirties what are females supposed to do? There is a difference in thinking of a thirty five year girl from a twenty five year one. Last few years have brought on great divide because girls are living independently away from parents who normally kept an eye on them previously. These girls are competitive in every field; sex is just one more aspect of this changing life. Male mindset perhaps is still stuck up on virginity. We must not forget Indian values favor men more than women and that is the reason they want to stick to it. No doubt dowry, bride burning is still rampant in many parts of the country. Middle class girls still have to tow the traditional line. There are certain questions raised in my mind for a man who wants a woman to be liberal. Will you marry a woman after premarital sex? will a boy ever want a liberal girl to be his wife? many of the answers will be no......Males on the other hand want modern and hip girls as girlfriends and traditional females as wives. sometimes they want both rolled into one. It suits their purpose. 

Till the time we allow people (especially women) to have the security of expressing themselves, it would not be feasible to have a society with liberated women and a prosperous society..... 

MY INSPIRATION

This is a letter for a special person, a letter expressing my feelings for this special person. who, in one way or another gave me everything he has, and still loving me just the way I'm...

From the very moment that I was so LONELY, SAD and ALONE came the man who start changing my LIFE. He is like an angel come rushing at my side, whom ever wanted is to comfort me and stay as long as I want him too.First I was so eager to get away from him,knowing that he will also hurt me like what others do to women like me.I was then thankful that God had given me the chance to meet a person like him, full of passion,Love, Care,willingness and patience. Having him in my life makes everyday a living grace. Loving him is an important element in my present reason why I still live with hope and faith. I was so lucky for I always have him in good terms or in bad. He became my inspiration, he makes me remember how to SMILE while under pressure. He pulls me up whenever I'm down and make me strong when I'm weak and hopeless. I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as 'making a life.' 'I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back...' 'I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.' 'I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.' 'I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel......'. I  always remind him that I'm the most SELFISH woman he will meet. If I'll be given the chance to go back to my past I will always choose the DAY that i met him. And that I will always take the path where he is and in return, of all the love, sufferings and sacrifices he had encountered being with me, I will never regret that I loved him and still Falling for him.Well, this present DAY of our relationship, We are getting stronger and he is  reason why I continue Writing.He taught me to forgive and start all over again to ease the pain and scars I gain from my past. With his love and my family's I can go on and reach for my dreams and soar high!! .


thanx alot buddy........!!!

Fear To Face Reality

Sometimes, when I am sitting alone in my room, lost in emptiness, I wonder like many others why do i fear to face reality?? Why am I not willing to accept reality?? Am I the only one or are we all the same??? Why don’t I act and do something??? I fool myself by telling myself that’s it fate...their fate....but I know the truth....even if I can do something....I wont...coz I fear reality....

Few days back while talking to a friend about this fear fact my condition is like "i know all" but don't have solution. I know I lie to myself  form so many years. When I was a teenager I was afraid that everybody would think that wat I was (after an accident). I needed desperately to hide myself. I developed a strong imagination that would help me invent what I didn't know. I started believing in that world of imagination. I kept trying on different masks to see which is the most comfortable, which affords me the most protection from exposure.

Let's talk about fear. Whatever we fear controls us. Fear, if not confronted, prevents us from truly living. 

Fear is like a prison

On some level we are all facing fear - afraid of being seen for who we truly are. Afraid of seeing ourselves for who we really are. Afraid of confronting our limiting beliefs, we avoid facing fear by hiding.We run away thinking we can avoid our reality, but what we don’t realize is nothing ever goes away until it has taught us what we need to know. We can lie to ourselves or run all we want. we must accept suffering and open our hearts to look at how weak we are being by trying to avoid it. Only then can we discover that the very thing that terrifies us is in fact a way for us to reconnect with our true self. 

As I explored this new idea of "facing fear", I realized that I was actually very scared; I had created this perception of myself  It was a fear of how I'd be perceived. And the reality i have found is... nobody is paying attention and no one is judging me. It was simply my fear, the old acronym, "False Evidence Appearing Real".
By committing to facing fear and growing, I've learned so much about the other person and about myself. Facing fear will open  new possibilities, for this i have to be brave enough to step outside of my comfort zone.

Long Distance Relationships

Long distance relationships are as special as any other relationship, however they come with the added baggage of being far from the respective partners, and that too by considerable distance. The traditional definition for a long distance relationship accounts to that 'intimate relationship in which the partners are separated over long distances'. This definition actually comes to being a lot more than merely their literal translation, as there are several aspects that one needs to think about, before committing themselves to a long distance relationship.

Long distance dating is manageable if you've got the right mentality for it, but it can still have its ups and downs, regardless of how strong you and your partner may be.

Before I get into how one manages a long distance relationship, I'd like to first say that these are not for everyone; some people simply aren't made to cope with such things, and there is nothing wrong with that.

If you're not made for long distance relationships, it's easy enough to avoid having one. If you are made for them, it's important you realize they're only meant to be a temporary fix -- your long term relationship goal should not be that of a long distance relationship! If all you want is someone to chat to over the phone and by email you can get that easily enough in the penpal section of your local paper. 

WORDS UNSAID & UNDONE.....

Ive been trying to find the right words that could make you understand why I should be doing this, but to no avail. It hurts deeply coz I have learned to live my life with you as part of it. With you I feel complete. And I know I'll be living the rest of my life feeling this emptiness.


These past days has been so wonderful coz I had spent it with you. It was the best times of my life. You make me laugh without really trying. I feel comfortable talking with you and I dont feel any restrictions. 

I want you to know that you've done nothing wrong. In fact, you've done done so much in keeping this relationship. You may blame me for being so weak. I admit I am.


Still i dont have enough words. Im just so sorry. I know I have caused you pain. Im so sorry for the things and words unsaid and undone.